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Just can't help feeling so miserable now. Extremely miserable.
No good.....

It's hard to explain the exact feeling. Disappointed; furious; anyway, it's terrible.

Now then I know how bad you wanted to quit.
When you were so excited asking me to replace you, then I know how harsh it was on you. Then I can't help feeling bad. I just feel that I've forced you to do so.

I really understand how important it was to you. Yet, I can't help feeling bad. That's why I couldn't say a word and could only keep quiet. Then, I just felt that maybe I'm "too good" and thus people around me are somehow "taking advantage" of this. People would just think that "o she won't mind, blah blah blah". Yet, I DO mind! I'm reasonable, but that doesn't mean that I don't have feelings. That doesn't mean that I'd accept whatever you do or give me.

Can't people just understand this simple fact that I also have feelings????

Maybe never.......

posted by cc @ 01:57